So odd. I’d not heard anything like it for decades. But there it was, as it unmistakably left my lips and hung in the air. A whistle, yes, a whistle, complete with shrilly vibrato, as though it had emerged from one of those content old men who can knock out any melody at the drop of a hat.
How on Earth did it happen?
It was last Sunday morning. I was sitting at the dining-room table, beside me a good coffee half drunk, in front the laptop whirring away as I did something easy on the screen. Playing on the stereo in the background was a CD I hadn’t listened to for years. Bearing the Bell: the Hymns of Thomas Tallis by Sydney-based jazz saxophonist Andrew Robson.
Let me say that I’m not fond of jazz. I don’t even like the look of the word (it looks almost obscene). And I don’t like a thing about the saxophone – Kenny G’s got a lot to answer for. But I bought Bearing the Bell after reading a review of it in the newspaper. What originally intrigued me was the way Robson so irresistibly abstracts his selection of sixteen-century ‘tunes’, which are the basis for many Christian hymns. It’s delicious music.
These days I don’t have a religious breath in my chest, but the majority of my first eighteen years were spent at an all-boys Anglican school on Sydney’s North Shore, one where weekly attendance at chapel was compulsory, and taken very seriously – by most students. If there was one thing I loved about chapel it was singing the hymns, especially the ones where Tallis was the source.
The hymns were unfathomably beautiful. The harmonies. The passing notes. The big, glorious, skin-tightening finishes. Now I think about it, what a strange act it was to bellow out lines such as ‘When in the slippery paths of youth/with heedless steps I ran/thine arm unseen conveyed me safe/and led me up to man’ (from “When All Thy Mercies, O My God”).
Who knows what these words really mean.
All I know is that listening to Robson’s imaginative take on Tallis last Sunday morning made me whistle. The whistle was brief, really just half a dozen notes, but in that moment I felt happier than I have in decades. As if I was nothing more than a teenager again and walking the cool corridors of school.
(First published in Panorama, The Canberra Times, 10 August 2013.)
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August 16, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Gabrielle Bryden
hahahahaha – there certainly could be a number of meanings to that lyric Nigel 😉 Singing songs in mass is about the only thing I miss about going to church – belting out a few joyous tunes (in fact I have one of the hymn books from church still to this day – surely I didn’t steal it! I would play my guitar and sing my little heart out – hahaha – oh dear). I won’t comment on your dislike of jazz #shocking but nothing should surprise me as I once heard you didn’t like Shakespeare #abomination 🙂
August 17, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Nigel Featherstone
Hi Gabe, it’s amazing how important and powerful singing is, whether it’s in church or otherwise. And it’s also extraordinary how many people who no longer go to church say that the only thing they miss is the singing.
Maybe one day I’ll like jazz, but on the evidence so far it seems unlikely. If you DO love jazz, you may well love Bearing the Bell. It’s so amazing. In fact, bugger it: I’m gonna put it on now!
(As to Shakepeare, I submit this quote from Tolstoy: ‘There are times in my life I have read through Shakespeare and Goethe from end to end. And I never could make out in which their charm consisted.’)
August 16, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
broadsideblog
Separated at birth? I attended a school identical to yours from Grade 4 to Grade 9, when they asked me to leave at the end of the year…too mouthy. Imagine!
But oh, the hymns. I loved them all there and learned them by heart and they can still bring me to tears when I belt them out. Aaaaaaah. I loved Joyful, Joyful and All Things Bright and Beautiful, Abide with Me and even the old stalwart, Onward Christian Soldiers. I didn’t like all that religion, per se, but I adored the hymns. Thanks for this lovely piece…as usual.
I just Google imaged you, for the first time. Now I know what you look like! 🙂
August 17, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Nigel Featherstone
Hi Cait, separated at birth – imagine that!
But stranger things have happened. Especially in religion…
So glad you too enjoyed singing the hymns. Do you find when you have the occasion to be in a church that you get stuck into the hymns again? I know I do. But then I feel like a hypocrite because I really don’t believe the words.
Well, now you know what I look like. Damn, I was trying to keep that a closely guarded secret!
August 18, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
broadsideblog
It’s actually nice to know what you look like.
That we both attended Anglican schools for many years may well have shaped us in ways we are still discovering all these years later.
I love the hymns and, depending on their content, I do believe some of them. I just find them very beautiful and singing them makes me unreasonably happy.
August 18, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Nigel Featherstone
Hi again Cait, yes, that’s true – our Anglican schools are still influencing us, but perhaps not in the way they attended.
As to singing’s ability to make us ‘unreasonably happy’ – my, how I love that phrase. Singing really can make us ‘unreasonably happy’.
But I wonder why exactly that is the case.
August 20, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Tristan
Hi Nigel. It’s for a number of reasons that this post reminded me of school days I hadn’t thought of for some time.
I spent most of my schooling wishing the whole thing would be over (when I think of the school corridors, I also remember them as being cool – and dim). There were plenty of good days, but I was far more comfortable out of school than in.
I simply cannot sing (or, sadly, whistle), but when we were being evaluated for choir duties – and it was, in my mind at least, very much a duty – I recall not being able to think of anything worse and sung extra poorly so I’d be skipped over. I was never particularly moved by the hymns, but I do remember being left bewildered by their strange language. What did move me was the iconography, the architecture, the history – something I think came from spending so much bloody time in church, even as a tiny kid – but not in the way that was intended. The stories were of interest in the way that Ancient Greek myths are of interest – not because I thought they told fundamental truths of where we come from but as an ancient peoples’ way of interpreting the world. Looking back now, this almost seems like the inevtiable outcome of this particular brand of education!
August 20, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Nigel Featherstone
Hi Tristan, lovely to hear from you.
Ah another way that hymns get beneath our skin: the surrounding architecture, the ancient stories, all the bloody symbols!
I gather you, too, attended an Anglican school?
There must be a PhD in a topic around the ongoing impacts of singing hymns as kids. I bet it wouldn’t be all good and lovely either. Not that I’d be the one to do that PhD – I’ll leave it to a braver person…
August 21, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Tristan
Catholic school (it’s all the same, isn’t it?), primary and secondary. Got some good mates out of it, but that’s about it…
August 22, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Nigel Featherstone
Hmmm: religion is religion is religion. That’s worth pondering. Or not. But I’m glad the Catholics gave you some mates!
August 25, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Geoff
Ahhh Tallis … It’s so wonderfully rich and colourful. Kenny G isn’t Jazz by the way… It’s a cruel hoax destined for dwellers of lobbies and elevators and those unfortunate souls being convinced their call is important to them.
August 25, 2013 at 9:16+00:00Aug
Nigel Featherstone
Hi Geoff, Kenny G might not be jazz but he turned the saxophone into a disgrace. Whoever forms government in Australia on September 7 should immediately legislate against Mr G being played in our (un)fair nation ever again.